7 Aug 09
08.07.09 (1:49 am) [edit]It's been very different lately. She has been behaving very different from the past, though she said she has always been like this. She used to talk to me about things she don't like about me, but now she doesn't, even when I sit down beside her when she sobs quietly under the blanket. I'm under the impression she's influenced by the people around her (I'm not blaming anyone). There was this couple that lived together with us for 1 semester and now broken up and during that period it was rather indirectly affected everyone in the house. When something happened she would come in and start saying why guys are so bad bla bla bla and I felt like I'm being judged as one of them. I've been loving her for so long and trying to reach into her but now it feels like it's back to square 1. I've told her many things that I will do and I'll do it becos I love her. Sometimes, at that very moment, I felt like "enough is enough.. don't behave like tat, just tell me and I'll listen" and I feel angry and frustrated. But then I also come to realised everytime she cried it's becos of me and that I need to do better, and I will becos I love her. I'm sorry if you think I don't love you anymore, I do Love you Baobei muackz, don't doubt this but I really hope you would talk to me about these, I really hate this feeling that I'm someone you cannot talk to directly and I'm also a human, I will feel sad and angry and etc at sometimes but it does not mean I don't love you. I still love you and I just need you to think about talking to me ok muackz..