Time Wasted

04.02.08 (12:23 am)   [edit]

Well I'm having this headache now, I think partly is because of the hair, the heat trapped inside my head and worsen if I wears a cap going out under the sun. Also partly is because of the assignment I've yet to complete and even thought of last min change in the topic qns. Meaning it would be a week's effort down the drain.

Alright why "Time Wasted" as a title then? Lots of reasons, did some reflections during toilet breaks and during late night studying.

  1. I guess poly life was wasted, I did not really learn how to do up a piece of assignment properly and now I don't know what is required of me to do 1... All those research I have to read up up to support my answers, and formatting the report with all the proper referencing included in the text was never like any of those I did in my poly years.
  2. And also those readings I ought to do during my free time, read about anything to make my understanding of certain topics deeper, were never done. O man, there are more to Lecture notes than just text books, I need to read more than this.
  3. I've chosen a topic qns I thought it would be easy for me to do but I guess it was a bad choice, I have 2 choices now, to start on another or to finish the 1 I've started off with, now thats a waste of time, I should have made the choices earlier but did not, again I lacked the ability to see far.
All these things just make me question more about myself sometimes, and full of doubts here and there, losing all my confidence etc, I don't know who I am anymore haha =) what kind of person I am, or used to be. Maybe I was too over protected in the past, at home, in school, at work, in OCS, everything then was too easy and then here I am trying hard to go through the simplest  2000 words assignment... or maybe I just taking things too hard, or maybe I'm never that good in the 1st place...


posted by: (reply)
post date: 04.01.08 (7:22 am)

You know what I always say about you, not putting your priorities in the right places. Guess what? I finally feel my dear is 'growing up'. =)

Uni can't be compared to our poly days dear.. There's a reason why it is called 'diploma' in poly, and 'degree' in Uni. Even though it's similar, it's not the same. But it's a learning experiences then all the same, so it's not time wasted.
Anyway, having some doubts about yourself, asking questions about yourself and what you're doing, what you can do to improve(which you have), is a good thing. Just don't let it all be 'zhi shang tan bing' like it is most of the time. And don't let all your confidence be washed down the drain. I have confidence in you, if you put in the effort you'd be able to achieve what you want to.

It's so good to see my dear thinking about these stuffs. I know you're trying hard. *muackz*


posted by: xinwei (reply)
post date: 04.03.08 (5:10 am)

hey. how are u doing man? good to see u studying hard!
all the best, hope to see ya soon!

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