Not Changing... Yet
09.19.09 (3:19 am) [edit]Sometimes I just don't understand what is going on in her mind, I tried talking to her yet she's always quiet about things.. We have talked about these many times and still nothing seems to be changing.. True enough, I've also not changed abit I guess thats maybe the reason why she's not changing also.. why should she change if I don't right.. But there are just some things I dun like her to do and she's always doing it.. like ignoring me, throwing "things" like they dun mean anything, showing me a face that makes me thing what is wrong but she just wun say, just doing things she like to do... I'm not saying I have to tolerate all these rubbish from her because these are not rubbish but just that these are just the way she express herself and I know but sometimes it just frustrates me.. I know I've not been bringing her out and spending time with her for quite some time.. but I'm studying hard and she is studying hard as well and when I'm resting, she's not... she's been studying every single day, how to go out? (not her fault, I should be the one thinking how to help her relax abit..) let me just go and think of something.. it's really hard for me to think about the stupid studies and when I'm relaxing she's still studying.. and even the wkends she will be studying... and when she's resting, we just feel like lying in bed whole day.. oh well no 1 said relationships are easy to maintain, and surely no 1 said life is easy to balance everything.. there are just so much things to be done and so little time left.. guess I've to make some sacrifices in order to make my baobei happy =) and I'm a man not a god..