28 May 08
05.29.08 (8:39 am) [edit]Was out with Baobei for her shopping trip, wanted to make her happy by doing so but end up she was not happy... She was going to buy 2 pieces of clothings but neither of us had cash on us as we had spent them before that shop so I asked her to use the "nets" just like in SG but she wanted to go up to the ANZ's ATM to withdraw $$, I just don't understand why so I asked her a few times she said I was being fierce... maybe I over reacted abit but definitely not fierce... I would never be fierce to her... not yet at least...
Came back, everything was ok after dinner... she came up and then she knocked herself at the door while going into the room, I merely just finished off my sentences with Brown to wake Nick up at 2330 she said I did not bother about her...
GTG school will continue later....
Just had my FMGT tute and it only lasted about an hour and a half so here I am back home to rest before my lect a 1200hrs... ok lets pick up from where i've stopped...
My Baobei was hurt and I did not care about her... oh... it was not even more than 10 sec when i completed my sentences... and there she was upset over it and lying by her side tearing... I've always been the one saying sorry and making mistakes... is it like that? is that all true... maybe because my expectations are not very high thats why I don't get angry all the time... sometimes people always say others scare of their wives etc... I don't think so.. I believe is one way to love your wife.. you know like not being angry over small things... even if so just make her happy... there is no point in starting a war where you know no one will give in till the end... then what? people say I bully her... have anyone thought I was bullied? ah ha.. I doubt it... all the "you guy ma... must have patience... love GF" bla bla bla... then what I don't want to be love... I enjoyed bullying someone I loved... and I enjoyed people showing me temper as and when they like... I'm not saying i'm living miserably now... i'm ok just sometimes I hope she also understand what I need... and what I want... and what I don't like... and what I like... not those wat colour I like.. what food I hate.. but some sort of others like things done a certain way or certain behaviour... she bake cake for me I don't appreciate her good... well I being patience with her is that not something I should be appreciated for? then again... why must we calculate so much... hmm maybe its my thinking... I go think about it...
DIY no.2
05.27.08 (3:02 am) [edit]Today went to buy the pillar mount antenna for the car... Nick and I went to school 1st to submit my assignment and return library bks, then we went down to indoorpily side where the shop was.. came back and started removing the whole radio and antenna... had difficulty putting the new 1 in as the antenna cable had to go all the way in to dunno where... of cos I managed to get it through and there we have it... a new car antenna DIY repair... guess we just like to play with boy's toys...
I went to zzz only about 5pm... and woke up at 7plus for dinner... then watched SAW... ahaha going to enjoy my SAW2,3 and Hostel tml morning... tired....
Half F**Ked Assignment
05.26.08 (1:52 pm) [edit]Well its almost 1300hrs, I've just completed my last assignment to be submitted today. All I can say is this is a half-fucked assignment I've ever done haha.. I did not even complete it totally, left out 1 section where I cannot think of how the hell do I go about writing it. Ok lets just do some push the blame to other things less myself...
The section I left out was on data analysis methods... what about univariate, multivariate, then what t-Test, f-Test, ANOVA , z-Test, Chi-square and K-S... stupid lecturer, speak like... cannot even understand what he say less the lecture notes he came up with... the text book is another unfriendly thing for this course... i've never used a text bk there hardly had much sentences i can understand... well i dun blame my tutor, though he was not very clear in his explanation but still he helped me alot... just hope he will be lenient in my assignment... also I wanted to start early and finish JIT also just that the previous half-half presentation also took up some of my time to do my readings and so I was not able to get the assignment done properly... haha blame the world...
Alright now lets get back to reality, I can only blame myself actually, and also this is no longer primary school of cos u cannot expect everything to be done the way you want right, u can only change yourself to get the things u wan done.. so next time just start earlier... not too early also... then get to read through the whole assignment and then really know what needs to be done and understood... maybe make use of the consultation times the tutors provide would help... well i guess it will just be harder for me on the exams itself... =(
Time flies...
05.26.08 (12:10 am) [edit]Now is 2300hrs in QLD, meaning I've only 17hrs before my assignment is to be submitted to the resource center. I did say I wanted to start doing this assignment as early as one month ago but I did not do so as I had to get another presentation done the week before. Partly was also because I was lazy, had not been studying since the mid semester exams and doing assignments are all I've been doing, I guess its time I need to get back to the books before I lost myself again.
The lecturer said that this is not a weekend assignment, apparently it was for me... 48hrs counting down to the time I need to hand in my assignment haha... maybe I was overconfident, maybe I was too complacent, maybe its just myself.. the way I am all these while... the type that always get things done no matter how and prefer to do things the JIT style.. its called the Just-In-Time style.. some people might know this from supply chain management.. everything is just nice in time for everything never early or late, ensuring continuity.. high turnover.. I just prefer to do my assignment one time straight and complete it rather than spread it over time and abit here and there... many would say there are benefits in doing so but again preferences... I don't like the idea of refining my work, it just give me the "don't worry, just do abit now dun need 100% as got time to improve on it de" kind of mind set... I prefer to stress my mind to think of the best answer I can possible think of without room for error and then once a question is done I continue with the next.. it applies the same for exams as well but thats another story hehe =)
Anyway had a nice dinner tonight, Amun came to cook for us again, he has been here almost every night, guess we are friends haha =) I quite like this new friend of mine hehe =) easy going and worthy friend. unlike some others haha.. o well get back to work... 16hrs 50mins left...
Finally the form is here!!
05.23.08 (6:23 pm) [edit]Got the release form from Abel Car Rental... Here are the details:
Repair $465.69
Admin charge $330
Demurage $98
Total of $893.69
Lesson: Never rent a car, with all these charges, If I happen to do it twice, I can buy a 2nd hand car... just need to top up abit more.. this is stupid... but ok la I just want to settle this and get it over with...
What am I?
05.21.08 (3:06 am) [edit]Sometimes I don't really know what am I to her... maybe she thinks the same too... She'll just cry quietly sometimes in the room and when I ask her why or what happen she will just say no nothing. She say we need to communicate but it would not be easy for me as it was difficult for her.. I'm trying and still trying but why is it that I need to keep asking her just to get her to talk to me? Am I not the one you want to talk to or listen to? Or am I just someone who you say you love but expects from me but don't tell me or talk about anything. We do lack in this area of communication and seriously we need to do something about it. Sometime it pisses me off when she just keep doing things I dun like and she can smile about it.. ya true maybe to her its not a big deal and its the way she likes it like saying I don't like you, then again what about me, its just me also and I don't like it? I'm trying to understand her and communicate with her, not that I'm tolerating her, but is it that it will forever be like that? I don't think any of us wants it to remain like that too.. We need to do something about this together. I too want to be seen as a BF who cares and be there to listen to her problems and be felt like a BF. I'm not angry at her, but sometimes it just make me feel like "Fine, I asking you and you simply don't want to tell me, so who else you going to tell? Alright fine don't say anything, I don't want to hear about it either, maybe I'm not trying hard enough, but at least I tried.." There are times I just feel like walking away or even ask her to stop doing what she is doing as I don't like it, but I did not, because I would never want to do that to my GF, throwing temper at her for no reasons especially if its not even her fault, or even make our relationship worst by scolding her. I would rather talk about it than shout around and start a war for what, because we're getting to know 1 another? You want to know how I'm feeling at this pt? I'm feeling like a 3rd party, as if like she actually had someone else who loves her and she talks to that someone, cry with that someone, share with that someone. And I'm just someone who tries to love her and thats about it. I feel worst than a pet, at least her pets gets more attention from her. I don't know how to express myself really, maybe she already misunderstood all these. My english is not very up to standard, some people might misunderstood what I have meant in this entry, even her. All I want to say is I still love her but there is something we need to work on if we want to see changes, the great wall of china did not just appear overnight nor did civilization came about since the beginning of mankind.
15 May 08
05.16.08 (12:32 am) [edit]Yesterday I took the car out to do some shopping and got the car a new CD player. I also got myself a new GPS to play with, its the HP travel companion. Well I can only say I'm still the guy always looking for new things to play though YH asked me to stay focus after getting the car, I will bro.. Turn out fitting the new CD player onto a 94 car was not a good idea. There was no way I could do it.. but WE did it. My friends and I looked through the net and found the right way to get it done. We removed the whole center gear board then the front console where the radio is. Btw forgot to mention it was a FM/AM tuner the car uses. after we got the old radio out, we faces challenge no. 2... The CD player was a Sony player, relatively new. The connector was different, so again after dinner we went back to the net, found the wire configuration for the 94 car and try to figure out which cables join which cables, really DIY... at 1st try we managed to get the power supply right and then no sound, after some try managed to get the right speaker up and finally both speakers. The car only had 2 front speakers so wire combinations were minimum. Proud of ourselves we managed to do it like some 1st time mechanic haha. Alright back to focus haha, there are times to play, which I did, and there are times for hard work... now is the time. =)
13 May 08
05.14.08 (1:26 am) [edit]Today I was 5mins late for tute, was held up in the toilet.. stomach... I went to school in such a rush I forgot my jacket and adaptor for my laptop AC supply. HAI... Lets talk about today, went to tute and my tutor mentioned something about my hair being long, oh well I've been going for tutes and lects in my cap almost everyday =D so guess they just never got the chance to see my long hair till today. Had my 1st project meeting with the guys today, talked about how we going to settle the upcoming presentation for next week. I guess its just a beginning and they are not exactly the too enthu kind so everything is cool. Just hope I can get my desired grades haha... Well read baobei's OD and was actually quite happy that we are enjoying the little chat at night just before our sleep, will sure do more of that =) there is always something new to discover everyday I guess we just need to communicate more. And also know what will piss her off etc... hehe.. how to motivate me I myself also not sure just need to give myself some quality time to do some soul searching etc... Almost forgot, Nick and I just bought a 94 Magna for $2,600 shared. Its a new experience and hope it will teach me more before I actually get a car when I get back to SG. Buying a car now to me is not just about "wao got car liao just go out la haha no one stop me le" but more of a additional responsibility upon myself. The responsibility of ownership and towards others. Like being able to make right decisions and say No to Brown if he wants to drive. Even learn to share and maintain the car together. I know I would not be able to do so with my Bro back at SG haha I will be hogging the car most of the days... Thinking of getting one of those GPS to use also. But not just any one, will consider those better and als affordable ones before buying.. the HP one looks good and better also in certain aspects. I need to start saving up also hehe... I not young liao... Need to start family...etc... all need $$$$$$$$$$....
LOST
05.10.08 (5:52 pm) [edit]I've been sleeping alot lately, not able to do my work as I've planned. I'm feeling sort of depressed with many things. Like the Hons Prog, my assignments, my exams, my study. I don't seem to know what I'm doing now.. feeling at lost. Losing myself, with no self-motivation, or my mind just full of blanks and can't think logically or properly. I've assignments due soon but I've not started and I don't know why. Maybe I just cannot get over the fact that I did not do very well for my past assignments and exams and its not possible to attain high grades no matter how hard I try. Maybe I just need a long rest.. but I don't have that kind of time.. Lost...
4 May 08
05.05.08 (1:57 am) [edit]I've been thinking about getting a car, either shared or buy one myself. Cars here are cheap, really cheap. A second hand car can be as cheap as $2,000-$4,000 and a better and newer car would be about $10,000. Also a new Volvo C30 is between $40,000-$50,000 cheap right. Though not that I got alot of cash to spare but then again I don't mind taking this opportunity to try to own something big and learn to maintain it. Treat it like a 1st hand experience with an old car, so when I get back to SG it would be better for me when I get my 1st car. The first problem I have here is sharing or fully-owned. There are four of us staying here so if share cost would naturally be 4 of us but I would not ask my Baobei to pay and they said three of us share. Then again only 2 of us can drive, why should Brown be paying for a share. Even if he does not mind, maybe I do. I would not let him drive that car, unless he passed is license in SG or gets a learner/provisional license here. I only trust whatever is on paper, so a qualified license would be minimum not his character. If someone possess a license how can you not let him drive, but if anything happens then the fault would be negligence not qualification. If someone can drive but without the paper, if anything happens then the consequences would be more severe. The second problem I have is cash, well technically like my Baobei had mentioned before, I'm in debt. Meaning every single penny I have should be used wisely to reduce the amount I would borrow from Citibank or use to pay other costs of education I might incur during these times. So if three people share is relatively cheap, two people share then its not that cheap, and if fully-owned needless to say. I guess here are many more things I need to consider before I make up my mind, but buying a car now here is earlier the better. Maybe will just wait for a good deal. Maybe will worry about that after my exams, got the timetable, not fixed but still more or less, 7,12,13 & 20 Jun. Got some days in between to study I guess will be fine =).
The Phantom of theOpera
05.03.08 (6:02 pm) [edit]Watched The Phantom of the Opera at the QPAC @ Southbank on the 27 Apr 08, 1500hrs. Baobei wanted to watch this in SG but we did not get a chance to do so and when we 1st came here, I saw and was planning to watch this with her and finally I managed to find time and booked the tickets and caught the last show if not it will be dunno when again. I did enjoy the show but there was 1 or 2 times whereby I closed my eyes for like 3secs, the music was so... it just drove me to zzz... still I did enjoy the show... I also bought a Monkey doll, the doll that sits on the musicbox. It's so cute, the hair can change style haha =D... got some pictures but I'm abit lazy to use that photobucket thing to load it up... can't they just have something easier to use? Hope my Baobei had enjoyed the show hehe... well that was on the 27 Apr, yesterday Aman got his new car and drove us to Southbank for IronMan movie and dinner, then we actually went to Mt Cootha again. The view was different as it was night and the city was filled with nothing but lights, but there was not a single star in the fully covered sky. So sad... we talked about lots of things with Aman, Baobei also talked alot, I guess Aman is actually a not bad friend, we need some of these around. Had some other friendship matters but guess its not impt to list them here just let things sort themselves out. Just don't push my limit haha its not easy to push my limit but it can be done.. =)