29 Apr 08
04.29.08 (8:32 pm) [edit]Got back my midsemester exams, got 12/15 for this MCQs not bad but still not gd enough, and also got back my RBUS 2900 Assignment 1 but surprising got 89/100 and I'm rather happy though only 20% of final grade but i will do well hehe =) Had this survey with my Baobei for some relationship study, got to do it together so that baobei will get her 2credits, i did not answer some qns as i did not understand the English they used but still i did the survey, am glad i can do something for my baobei hehe =) muackz..
24 Apr 08
04.24.08 (8:39 am) [edit]Today is my 2nd and last mid-sem exam paper, Personal Wealth Management. Still feeling abit worried and so after how badly I did for my first paper. Been studying early for this and revise over and over just hope all these stays inside me this time. Think I will make way to school and study there. My Baobei said I don't appreciate her as much as I do anymore, Its either I don't love her as much as I do now or she has did too much so this is no big deal anymore. I dunno wat to say, not that I dun love her anymore, but appreciating that cake is.. maybe I did under react and shown more appreciation for that cake she made.. and also maybe becos I'm not much of a dark chocolate favor person so I dun really eat the cake as much as I enjoyed other cakes. And also the fact tat I can eat it for supper while I study why eat it just before dinner... I don't know maybe my actions are just wrong to her and not justifiable as loving caring to her. I'm not saying she baked the wrong cake in the 1st place, its the effort, just maybe I was not in the mood for cakes and such after my 1st 10/15 MCQs which I'm still thinking about it now... o getting late gtg to school.. another 15 MCQs for 35%...
23 Apr 08
04.23.08 (6:05 am) [edit]Its 0500 here, I'm still studying and listening to online 93.3FM radio. Baobei is abit upset but I not very sure why.. sometimes her silence drives me crazy hehe but thats something part of her.. and I've got to learn to figure out how to either make her talk to me or make something out from her silence.. not easy but not impossible.. anyway got an email from Boss, having exams, wish him all the best. I replied his email but forgot to say "don't worry about the tension u've caused because its not u its the way I handled it =)" I've also got a paper this Thurs (Tml) for another 35% 15 MCQs.. I think I've mentioned this countless of times haha... o well I'm nervous hehe.. I've got Gary to buy my things for me and I've yet to thank him =) "Thanks Gary" since things here are not as cheap as SG, I've got Gary to help me check out the things I want to buy from here in SGD so if its cheaper in SG I'll just get him to buy for me and stuff like that. He's enlisting soon during Jul into Commandos haha =D well well I finally got a Commando friend.. though I've got a Commando Officer brother-in-law... This Sun afternoon I'll be going to watch a play with my Baobei for the 1st time... Phantom of the Opera... cost me abit but still affordable.. and since I'll be receiving my VMB this Apr I guess I've some to spare =) not any-o-how spend but still can afford this =) I still receive $$ from SAF now and then which I thought I should not be but its all previous year's PB and stuff like tat which is spread out so I'll still receive them.. which added up to quite abit and I hope to save all these so I can pay my fees with them instead of using the Loan.. Been revising my PWM and thinking about investing my $$ etc but still its abit early, I'll worry about this when I get back to SG =) Its time to think ahead and invest and start accumulating wealth.. maybe will speak to Boss and see what he can advise me with haha =D Alright.. got to go Zzz I guess I will finish up my revision after I've my short nap =)
My Birthday
04.20.08 (1:35 am) [edit]Had my birthday yesterday, 18 Apr 08, did not really expect much as I'm not in the mood for celebration since I did badly in my paper. Not that I will celebrate much also, birthdays parties are not really my cup of tea. However, my Baobei baked a small cake for me and then we had a little cake cutting at home after dinner. Brown treated us to dinner during his Bday and so I also did the same thing, wanted to had dinner at Hog's Breath at city today (19 Apr) but the place was fully booked and so we went to have this Decks place at southbanks near the cinema. The food was not bad and cost me reasonably =) also watched Street King, not a bad show... more shows to come.. Guess thats all for a day, Need to get back to study hai~~
FMGT Exam
04.18.08 (2:27 am) [edit]OMG, I stared at the 1st Qns for like 10-15 mins, it was a Qns appearing at the MCQs practices but I just could not get the answers right, goner... Its a 40% exam, with only 15 MCQs meaning 1 Qns wrong is about 3marks gone, and till now I've got at least 3 wrong, meaning I need to score full marks for my End of semester paper to get my desired GPA... this is so bad... now need to stop worrying about this and move on to the next paper... another paper next thurs, 35% 15 MCQs... wat the...
17 Apr 08
04.17.08 (11:41 am) [edit]Today is my 1st mid-sem exams, I've been revising since tues and wed and even now thurs I'm still revising. I sleep at 0600 ytd and I'm feeling abit strange now =S oh well maybe I wouldn't study this way for next week paper. I only had 2 mid-sem exams this semester so got to do well... It 15 MCQs but its 40% omg...
14 Apr 08
04.14.08 (9:45 am) [edit]Another assignment due today and I've just finished it. It is 0840 now, I feel so sleepy yet I'm not sleeping... People have been reading and asking me why are things here so bad for me, I guess its normal for people to ask me these questions since relationship have their ups and downs from time to time. But all is well I guess, Need to start working on my running and my work and my mid semester now. But first I got to rest =) Their mid semester exams have finished or going to finished but mine just started, but my assignments are due, their's are just starting. I don't even know what am I writing now haha Alright more of my assignment, I did know I can finish it in time but as my first time doing a uni assignment, I did more reading then I have ever done and been completing it only on the day itself. I guess my next assignment I need to do more reading and start early finish early so as to allow myself more time to check on it and improve on it. 1 more assignment due during may I guess I'll be able to try getting it done early as possible =) Baobei jia you wol muackz!!
11 Apr 08
04.11.08 (8:20 pm) [edit]Days back I made my Baobei unhappy and when I read her OD, I thought of why and thought of her then my tears almost fell from my eyes to my keyboard, I knew I had to say sorry I remembered the love she had for me and the things she gave up for me. And I know I love her. So I went up and said sorry before I went to bed.
Then there she was somehow unhappy with me again, she said she was invisible, there got to be some explanation why she said I treated invisible, was it because I did not tell her about what I intended to tell her after my conversation with yh? or was it because I was talking to Brown & Nick while she was beside me. I don't remember, I did reply her when she ask me some questioned then she just walked away after dunno what. I went up and all she said was shut up go away from me. We have not spoken for today, I don't know why. Sometimes she say she want to give up, but there are also times I want to give up but I would not give up because this is not about myself, its about us. Its not as easy as running half way and stop, I believe our love is stronger than that, thats why I would not give up. =) Love you muackz...
09 Apr 08
04.09.08 (6:24 pm) [edit]Today had a RefWorks workshop that was conducted by the library, it was on using this web-based software in managing and creating references for papers. Went with Baobei in the morning to library at about 1100 as she had arranged to study with a friend so i tagged along. On the way to school, I told her about Boss's holiday plan and intention, she was not very pleased about it, obviously it was because of the money thing, we're here to study and most of our money are used to pay fees and living expenses, where got money to holiday, I knew she would say something like that and I've thought of it also and have budgeted about $2000 to do this, it was my budget for a holiday with her in Jun also just that she said it was too expensive to do it. I know its not like $5 $20 for a movie, its $2000 we are talking about here and that could pay like a few months of rent... But a holiday is a holiday...
Then she got upset when I said in the end it will be me only, then she said that was not what she meant but she always gave me the "you want you go la I don't want" even if she want its like abit of reluctance here and here, and she say discuss with her and I did but its more like asking her permission, it does not sound like a discussion at all, well sometimes a discussion can be like that and I know. She said we could join them in Gold Coast, ya it might sound like a discussion and compromise, a give and take thing, but to me a holiday is a holiday join them in Gold Coast I might as well have my own holiday, or whatever, maybe she would want that also, just the 2 of us.
Alright, had the workshop and it was simple, don't see why it had to be 2hours where things can be taught and maybe 30mins I could have left that place, and my Baobei said it wasted her time.. I believe so too.. Sometimes it kind of make me confused, I do something without telling you you say why I don't do it with you, I do with you somehow in this case it did turn out a waste of time. Take the Go card instance, nvm. Then on our way back, she became upset again, when she was talking to me I talk about cars, then she said "I don't want you la", well I was just finishing my sentences, it was just something on my mind then a remark, I know you had alot readings to do, and I just finished 1 assignment and look like I had my deserved zzz and everything, not like I don't understand or I don't care.
The phrase "I don't want you la." I HATE this phrase, but seems like she like it alot =) I know she just want to say that I'm bad and... so what to say say don't want you loh, sometimes it just make me like a toy want come don't want walk behind, it sounds different if she said "I don't want to talk to you." this shows anger, but what does I don't want you sound? Sounds like I don't want you la so simple.. nothing much just don't want you liao ok loh... I hate this... I sometimes hear Brown talk to his GF on the net and its like well I wouldn't say that to my GF. joking or not, "why u so stupid, I hate you, f**k u... ok maybe not exactly but I just don't say certain things. esp I don't say I don't want you liao. I learnt this from others and previous experiences, never say something that you think it might hurt that person because once its said it cannot be taken back, its like a promise etc but breaking a promise is different. If I broke a promise ya I broke it and you will remember I broke it and cannot be trusted again, but If i say i don't want you, its just I don't want you what will u remember? I don't want you = ?? there is no room for interpretation right? like ppl say not happy break loh not happy divorce loh, what does that mean? simple wat the sentence speaks for itself, you don't have some1 saying "what you mean by that?" and that guy can actually give another meaning to his words...
I'm not angry nor am I pissed, I'm just saying what I feel and like she say we need to communicate so I'm doing it now =)
07 Apr 08
04.07.08 (8:03 pm) [edit]Its 1900 now, I've just finished cooking the dinner, took a very long nap after I had Brown submit my report for me, its a very long zzz... and I'm glad I had that sleep. After dinner however, got to start on my next assignment =S its going to be another week of no time no zzz...
Time Wasted
04.02.08 (12:23 am) [edit]Well I'm having this headache now, I think partly is because of the hair, the heat trapped inside my head and worsen if I wears a cap going out under the sun. Also partly is because of the assignment I've yet to complete and even thought of last min change in the topic qns. Meaning it would be a week's effort down the drain.
Alright why "Time Wasted" as a title then? Lots of reasons, did some reflections during toilet breaks and during late night studying.
- I guess poly life was wasted, I did not really learn how to do up a piece of assignment properly and now I don't know what is required of me to do 1... All those research I have to read up up to support my answers, and formatting the report with all the proper referencing included in the text was never like any of those I did in my poly years.
- And also those readings I ought to do during my free time, read about anything to make my understanding of certain topics deeper, were never done. O man, there are more to Lecture notes than just text books, I need to read more than this.
- I've chosen a topic qns I thought it would be easy for me to do but I guess it was a bad choice, I have 2 choices now, to start on another or to finish the 1 I've started off with, now thats a waste of time, I should have made the choices earlier but did not, again I lacked the ability to see far.